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Scars

Throughout our life we acquire scars. Some scars are bad, and some scars are good, but as with everything else in life…. It is what we do with them that matters.

They are flaws that add character. Things that make us who we are. They show that we have lived, or that we have survived.

They remind us to be cautious, or remind us to take risks. The are examples of what we’ve done, and examples of what we should not have done.

They are memories of where we’ve been, and motivation for where we want to go. They are our life’s teachers, mentors, lessons, dreams, and hopes.

Our scars shape us, they encourage us, and the define us.

Here are a few of my scars that define me.

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This scar on my right ankle is from when I was an infant. Back then, that scar was the entire span of the inside of my ankle.  There is a story somewhere here in my other posts about that particular incident. If I was more technologically adept I’d put a link to it right here, but since I am not that skilled…. consider it a treasure hunt.

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This scar is on my right wrist. I had problems with my wrist/hand/arm for about 5 years and saw all too many doctors that said there was nothing wrong over those 5 years I had carpal tunnel like symptoms, but did not have carpal tunnel since I lost complete use of my hand/grip after performing menial tasks. One doctor finally did surgery on my wrist. Turns out, there was a cyst in my wrist that was leaking fluid, filling up the entire area of my wrist, which in turn constricted everything in that area. Absolute worst surgical recovery I have ever had. It was an extraordinarily painful recovery, but it was one of the best simply due to the fact that I could once again use my right arm/hand.

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Yep, that is my neck. This scar is my ‘victim of a violent crime’ scar. I had my throat slit from one side to the other. It will be one of my stories, and may even be a two parter, so keep an eye out down the road. The scar itself is a bit hard to see on the picture if you don’ know what you’re looking at.

Looking at the picture, it is wide/jagged on the right side and turns to thin and raised from the middle and over to the left side. It goes at an angle across my throat. From the lower natural crease on one side (right in the picture), to the higher natural crease on the other side (left in the picture). When I am emotional, stressed/angry/upset, it stands out more. When you get really frustrated, your skin changes color a bit. Scar tissue does not.

The scar itself isn’t so bad. Took quite awhile to heal, and I treated it well with vitamin E oil and the like. It also was a very huge help that the trauma doc on call that night just happened to be a plastic surgeon.

I am not my scars, but my scars make me. They don’t hinder me, they complete me. Without them, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

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Lights… Camera… Action!

I love movies. Preferably action, fantasy, comedy, and even sci-fi. I enjoy the ability to lose myself into another time, place, or world even of it is only for a few hours. This is also why I enjoy books, music, and some tv shows. They all allow you to set any troubles you may have for the time being and focus on someone else’s, who usually has it worse than you. Or they make you laugh til you wet yourself and you try lamely attempt to pass it off a spilling your soda. Or they make remind you of the goodness ans possibilities abound that are right in front of your face if you would just pay attention more often.

I love movies. I love the thought that it is possible for everyday people to become and be someone extraordinary. You can be the person who saves your loved one from the brink of something disastrous. You can be the person who laughs in the face of danger because you know that you are bulletproof or are perfectly capable of dodging the knife with your astoundingly fast super speed. You can be the person who saved the world from complete and total destruction and be proud even though most of the world will not know it was because of you.

For the first time in my life… Ever… I really wish I was able to act. Actually, its more like I wish I had more guts. I probably could act, and quite well, but lack of self-confidence and extreme stag fright have steered me in another direction entirely. But i think it would be amazing to be able to be someone else for a little while. To be the drop dead gorgeous person that has people swooning and fighting for you. To be the bad ass hero who can kick almost anyone’s ass anytime the occasion called for it. To be the villan, just once, because it would feel so good to be so bad and not actually have the end result that villans bring about. To be able to take off my shoes and walk in another’s knowing full well that you can get to put back on your own.

But it was never meant for me I suppose. Oh, my life has been like the movies, some of them at least, and not usually the ones I care to watch. I have lived it, so I prefer not to watch it. I really would have much rather been able to kick the living sh!t outta the bad guys though, all the while looking hot and not even breaking a nail.

As I give this some thought though, I must admit the truth. We really are all hero’s of some sort or another. We are parents of children with illnesses who look to us for hope. We are teachers and mentors of people who look to us for guidance and direction. We are cancer survivors who rally together to help others like us in need. We are the rock in rough waters to cling to. We are the arms that are there to support when the knees weaken. We are the light at the end of the tunnel.

It may still go unrecognized by others at times but we know we have done the right thing, at the right time, and have saved someone’s world even if it was not the whole of the world. Ah…. But if everyone, saves someone, then together we have all saved the world.

So now you know…. You have helped save the world. You are a superhero. You should be feeling really good and very proud of yourself right about now…. Because you deserve it!

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Everyone needs a reminder now and then

Smile at a stranger

 

While searching through an app on my phone, I found these words of wisdom (and fun). Enjoy! 

 

*When nothing goes right… go left.

 

*I don’t have time to hate people who hate me because I’m too busy loving people who love me.

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Crazy Kawaii Bot (Photo credit: Jenn and Tony Bot)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Remind yourself that it’s ok not to be perfect.

 

*I hate when I’m singing a song and the artist gets the words wrong.

 

*You can’t expect to be old and wise if you were never young and crazy.

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[crazy fun] (Photo credit: RHiNO NEAL)